Word up BG!
So yeah. I can't wait to just sit with God. I'm watching testimonies from people at IHOP, and it just increased my longing to be in a place that I can be with God.
When I move to KC, I will be doing the Intro to IHOP program, and doing the nightwatch program. the nightwatch is where you sleep at day, and you're awake during the night.. except... you go and do all your stuff in your "morning" (which begins at about 2 PM) and you go until 6 AM... but something awesome happens between those hours: from midnight to 6, the night watchers are in the prayer room.. that's right.. for three months straight I will be spending 6 straight hours in the prayer room a night. How awesome is that?! I don't mean this to sound like I'm holier than anyone else, because i know I'm not. The bible says that we have all sinned, and there is none righteous, no, not one (psalm 14:3). So I'm a sinner, just like the guy who murders someone else, or someone who cheats on a test, or someone who says God isn't real, or the prostitute on the corner. I'm just like them in God's eyes. I'm getting off topic, but I can't leave it at that.. the cool thing though is that God's grace covers all sins... and I mean ALLL sins. and he gives us DOMINION over them.. meaning WE DON'T HAVE TO SIN! it is NOT a requirement. sure it's going to happen, but you are not obligated to sin, because we have authority over this stuff. ANYWAY..
what I'm saying is In this blog by saying I"m not "holier than thou..." what you're seeing is the result of a heart that longs to simply be with my Creator. the Guy who made me... He wants to be with me, and i wanna be with Him..
I know this may seem like an exhausted topic in my blog, but it's not for me.. because it's the cry of my heart. I was made to worship God, and be DEEPLY involved in His plan on this earth. not just admire Him from a distance through the thick, black, choking smoke of the world. I was made to be loved by Him, and to love Him in return.
anyway.. that's my heart right now.
rg
ps - please pray for me.. I have lots of stuff to get done, and i fear that a good chunk of it will be due next week, and some of the things i haven't started yet. here's the list:
- choral lit: presentation (not sure if this is going to happen) and choral piece (barely started)
- Senior Capstone: Paper (research DONE. need to read it) - DUE MAY 2nd Final
- graphic design: project (started)
- spanish:project (thought about)
so yeah.. I need to get that stuff done
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